is there something wrong with me?

[Jull]

A few weeks back I had posted about my furkid, (yorkie mix) who has been having trouble adjusting to the new puppy we brought home at the beginning of December, we are still having problems, my older dog who has always been the sweetest dog I have ever met, has started to intentionally bite the puppy's legs at all times! so it scares me that no matter what we try, things will keep escalating between them, so I am still thinking about re-homing the puppy? (we have been doing a lot of reading and practicing all the tips on how to deal with a new puppy)

On the other hand, I spent a lot of time thinking about it this weekend, I've had a couple people that were interested in taking the puppy, but after a couple simple questions about their lives, I replied with a big fat No... neither seem like the kind of homes I would want for him, I want the best of the best for him obviously. Then, I started thinking about it really hard, why do I want to find him a new home, yet nobody is good enough for him?

Yes, it is because it breaks my heart that both little guys are not getting along, then I started to ask my self how I felt about the whole thing? I think maybe I was really not emotionally ready to get a second dog , I love him, how could you not? he has the sweetest little face (see pics below) but I feel no bond to him at all, when I think about finding him a new home I feel like a horrible human being for doing that to him, on the other hand I miss the days when it was just my oldest, and how much easier things felt, for example we do a lot of road trips to visit family so travelling with 2 dogs is a different story; I also cannot stand the way he looks at me when I am playing or holding the puppy, I just feel torn all over the place, and I keep wondering if there is something wrong with me?

I have a very special bond to my oldest or maybe I am too attached to him, but when I see him hurting I hurt too. And that is when I think, yes I have to find the new puppy another home, so nobody gets hurt.

When I was a kid I had pets all the time, several at a time, and never felt this way. But I don't know... I just feel like there is a connection missing, and I don't want to take anything away from my oldest either, does that make sense at all?

I think I may not be making much sense at all! and please do not judge me but I needed to vent , I really do care about both of them, and my main concern is both of their well being, but I just couldn't stop thinking about it - he doesn't feel like my "kid" and at the same time I think nobody is good enough to take him home either. I don't want one to feel hurt and replaced, and I don't want the puppy to feel like the "ugly duckling" either.

I really don't know what to do, I don't think I have ever felt this confused in my life

this is the puppy -