Oh sojuorn, my heart breaks for you. I so understand the pain and the doubt and the total devastation you must feel at losing Kobe. It brings back memories of my struggle to save my cat, Egypt. The grief can feel like it's crushing your soul and that you will never be the same again. And perhaps in some way, you won't be. You experienced an amazing thing: the pure love of another being and even though they aren't physically here anymore, that love is ethereal. It exists forever in your heart.
Perhaps when you're ready you'd like to make a commemorative post to Kobe in the Rainbow Bridge section here. I'd love to hear more about your special guy, and it can be therapeutic to focus on some good memories of him.
