You are all so kind and I appreciate your support..I am not a soft person who trapses about with my heart on my sleeve but I am beside myself with guilt and as odd as it may seem I just want affirmation that she was truly suffering,and the more she was suffering the more I feel I can be at peace with my decision...
to roll in here and just cry and pout but I have noone in life to reach out to and my Karma is gone ty for all your help.