Annieap,I just read your all your posts and I am so sad for you and little Heidi
It's soo very sad after all she and you went through.
You certainly did everything possible and she knew that..
We on this Forum have all been through it and it never gets easier,how could it be?You lose someone you love very much and it leaves an empty space in your heart.
People always say"she's in a better place"but then you think..no,her place was better with me!
But,who knows? She's probably with your mom,lapping up all the love she can get.
Take care and remember all the happy memories..