cpietra,I am so very sorry you lost Chrunchie and in such a dramatic way,but she's ok now,she passed knowing she was very much loved,with the person she loved the most.
I know we tend to blame ourselves,thinking I did not do this and that,I should have done that..etc,etc...but you were not to blame,certainly did not kill Chrunchie.
She felt it was her time to go and I know she does not want you to blame yourself,she loved you
sweet Chrunchie