And I'm the opposite, if it's something I really like, I look for ways to make it happen, then try, try, try again. I failed with irises on my first attempt. Wrong position, full sun, and I didn't realise that in our hot summers the rhizomes are best kept covered almost. Didn't know how much water to give them or that they needed feeding. And Clematis is another thing, finally got one to survive a YEAR.