I so appreciate hearing from you. When I first searched the internet I was looking to talk to those who would understand and not think me foolish. I have found that in this website. I laid on the couch this morning next to Blaze as he slept. His nose is bleeding a little less today, but he is sneezing a lot. I prayed for God to help me realize when I must open that door for him. My husband wants to get another dog when this is all over, but I do not think I can go the ultimate pain of losing again. He thinks another dog will be good for me. Right now I hurt so much I cannot even imagine forging this kind of bond again. Thank you so much for listening to me.