Don't worry about where the ashes went. Your pup is at the rainbow bridge waiting for you. His spirit would not want you to grieve so hard. He wants you to remember those special places, and I am sure that when you go there, for a second in time, you will get a glimpse of him. There are a lot of people here who have lost their beloved pets. It hurts, really hurts. But soon, you will smile again when you think or talk about him. Like do you remember when.....If you need to sound off, grieve, rant, cry or just talk. We are here.