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R.I.P. my sweet, beautiful Thorin

Rgeurts
March 4th, 2012, 11:03 AM
I'm posting now, because I know I won't be able to later. Our beautiful boy has finally succumbed to the cancer. No matter how much you try and prepare yourself for this day, you can't. Well, at least I can't. I'm completely devastated. He was so special to me, my soul dog.

:rip: Beautiful Thorin. Mommy will miss you more than you could ever know :cry: :cry: :cry: :(


My precious boy, trembling in fear.
You shiver and shake as I hold you near.
Not knowing the warmth that love can provide,
You run from me, you cower and hide.

"Just give him some time and a box with a bed"
"He'll come around soon" is what the experts had said.
We waited and watched, we gave you your space.
After more than a month, you were still out of place.

One night as I lay, struggling to sleep,
Unable to breath, self-pity ran deep.
I go to your box and lift you out...
Determined to show you what loves all about.

I whisper "I love you" as you squirm and fight.
I won't give up... you'll be mine tonight.
You finally give in and drift off to sleep,
Content in my lap, not making a peep.

When morning comes, I open my eyes,
And find you still sleeping... to my surprise.
Your little eyes open and look up at me.
You lay there calmly, just happy to "be".

From that moment on, you've been my sweet boy.
No longer scared, cowering and coy.
You've made me laugh when my tears would flow.
The comfort you've brought me, you'll never know.

And now it's you who struggles to sleep.
You cough and pant as I stroke you and weep.
With sadness and tears, I'll hold you this night...
And whisper "I love you" as we help end your fight.

Rgeurts
March 4th, 2012, 11:06 AM
My beautiful boy :cry: :cry:

Love4himies
March 4th, 2012, 11:16 AM
I am so, so sorry, Rgeurts. What a beautiful tribute for your boy :cry:, and no, no matter how hard a person tries, they are never ready for that final goodbye :grouphug:

CsqU4r3d
March 4th, 2012, 11:33 AM
OH Rguerts I am so very sad to read that the time has come to say goodbye to your sweet sweet Thorin. I know there is nothing anyone can say to ease the pain. Chum and I send all our love to you and yours in this most difficult time. You went above and beyond to do all that was humanly possible to give Thorin the best you had to give :grouphug::grouphug::candle::rip::cry::angel2::dog :

I saw a wondrous image then of a place that's trouble free,
where all of us can meet again to spend eternity.
I saw the most beautiful rainbow and on the other side
were meadows rich and beautiful lush and green and wide!

And running through the meadows as far as the eye could see
were every sort of animal, as healthy as could be!
My own tired failing body was fresh and healed and new
and I wanted to go run with them but I had something left to do.
I needed to reach out to you to tell you I'm alright,
that this place is truly wonderful - then a bright glow pierced the night.

'Twas the glow of many candles shining bright and strong and bold
and I knew then that it held your love in it's brilliant shades of gold.
For although we may not be together in the way we used to be
we are still connected by a cord that no eye can ever see.
So whenever you need to find me we're never far apart
if you look beyond the rainbow and listen with your heart.

Mirela
March 4th, 2012, 11:35 AM
I'm so sorry, Robyn.

Your boy was loved and had a wonderful life with you. I hope that, in time, the good memories you made together will help you endure the sorrow of losing him.

Hugs.

Mirela

Shaykeija
March 4th, 2012, 12:12 PM
I am so sorry..race to the bridge Thorin.....:sorry::rip::dog::pawprint::pawprint:

hazelrunpack
March 4th, 2012, 12:14 PM
My heart aches for you, Robyn. :grouphug: You're all in my thoughts and prayers.

:candle: Thorin

CarolynInPEI
March 4th, 2012, 12:30 PM
So very sorry for your loss.

pbpatti
March 4th, 2012, 01:17 PM
Robyn what a beautiful tribute you have written about your furry, four-legged soul-mate. He know that you are doing this with love in your heart for him to find comfort and to be pain free.

:pray::angel2:Thorin:angel2: soar high and free my sweet friend.

cpietra16
March 4th, 2012, 01:40 PM
RIP Thorin....:( you are now free and cancer free...:angel2:
Robyn, please accept my condolences..it is just a hard time to get through...I am sorry

Dee-O-Gee
March 4th, 2012, 02:05 PM
Such sad news Robyn. :(

My heart, thoughts and prayers go out to you, your family and Nookie Monster. May Thorin run free to the bridge and meet up with all the loved ones from this special group of friends. :angel2:

:grouphug:

Winston
March 4th, 2012, 02:43 PM
Rguerts I a so very sorry that you are going through this. I wish you peace and know that your boy was very loved. Not only by you and your family but many cyber friends! My heart has that familiar ache today. Take comfort in knowing that you will see Thorin again someday! Please give Nookie a gentle hug for me and please know that I am thinking of you and your hubby.

RIP sweet boy! :candle:
:angel2::dog::pawprint:

diandpat
March 4th, 2012, 02:51 PM
:cry::cry::cry: :rip: sweet Thorin...you and your family fought the good fight. Now you must rest and be pain free. You were well cared for and well loved.

Now run young, free, and healthy again at the Bridge will all the other loved and missed furkids from this board.

Rguerts :grouphug::grouphug::grouphug: to you and your family.

What a sad sad day :pawprint:

Digston
March 4th, 2012, 02:54 PM
So sorry for the loss of your baby :cry: He will live on in your heart and all those who knew him, until you meet again.

Dog Dancer
March 4th, 2012, 06:22 PM
Robyn my heart is broken for you. You know that words cannot heal at this time, but please know that I feel for you and understand the loss. Please give Nookie a gentle hug from us, and a huge hug for yourself. Thorin is pain free now, RIP sweet boy, you will always be loved.

Goldfields
March 4th, 2012, 06:38 PM
I'm so very sorry to hear this sad news, Robyn. You've been brave and had to do the last kind and loving deed for your beautiful Thorin and I know he would thank you for freeing him of pain and giving him peace if he could. :grouphug: from us. You wrote a beautiful tribute to him. I hope he went gently and that you find some comfort in comforting his mate, Nookie, who is bound to miss him also. Hate to tell you how many tears I've shed into dog hair when hugging my dogs after losing one.

pbpatti
March 4th, 2012, 08:25 PM
I have been having trouble on whether I should say something or not so I thought...would it hurt Robyn or would she be ok with this...I think she would be ok.

I was so very fortunate to have been with Robyn her DH and Big Brave Thorin when he left his worldly body this afternoon. His passing was peaceful and very honoring. Thorin's wonderful, loving and caring Dr. came in to her Clinic on a Sunday, and administered to him outside beneath some Fir Trees. Robyn and her wonderful DH were there to comfort and send Thorin off in their loving arms.

Thorin will be greatly missed by all who ever met him, he was a gentle giant. He even liked Sasha and me! Robyn, thank you for allowing me to be with you today.

Race over the Bridge my dear doggy friend. :pray::angel2::grouphug::cloud9:
Patti and Sasha.

growler~GateKeeper
March 5th, 2012, 12:21 AM
I'm so sorry Robyn :2huggers: :cry2:

:rip: sweet :angel2: Thorin :candle: He is playing at the Rainbow Bridge (http://www.indigo.org/rainbowbridge_ver2.html) with those who've gone before :candle: :grouphug:

hazelrunpack
March 5th, 2012, 01:17 AM
Robyn, you're in my thoughts and prayers tonight.

I'm glad you were able to be there for them, Patti. :grouphug:

Marty11
March 5th, 2012, 07:10 AM
I'm so sorry for your loss of "Thorin" I know it was a hard struggle for your pooch. My thought are with you. :rip:

Melinda
March 5th, 2012, 08:35 AM
he was so lucky to have you guys for his family , once again *hugs* I'm so so sorry.

chico2
March 5th, 2012, 10:39 AM
Robyn,you already know how I feel:cry:but I wanted to comment on your beautiful tribute to beautiful Thorin.
I know your heart is breaking,but Thorin had to leave,his fight is over and now he has only peace,no more sickness,he is ok..:rip:sweet,brave Thorin.

Rgeurts
March 5th, 2012, 12:54 PM
I just want to thank everyone SO much for all the kind words, hugs, and compassion. It means a lot to us all. I'm very thankful for all of you :grouphug: :grouphug:

Patti, of course I don't mind. You were wonderful support for Shaun, Nookie and me, and we love you dearly. Thank you for being there MF :2huggers:

Nookie was very traumatized, though. We got home and he wouldn't let us touch him. He wouldn't even look at us for the first few hours. I think he thinks we killed his brother :cry: :cry:
He was a little better this morning, but then he had a pretty bad seizure a couple of hours ago :(

I just feel so lost.

Sylvie
March 5th, 2012, 12:54 PM
I am so sorry that such a beautiful boy had to leave.:( I know how you must feel right now. It is never easy to do the right thing. I am going through this right now with 2 of mine and it hurts so much. :grouphug: to you and your family.

:rip: Sweet Thorin

Love4himies
March 5th, 2012, 01:42 PM
I just want to thank everyone SO much for all the kind words, hugs, and compassion. It means a lot to us all. I'm very thankful for all of you :grouphug: :grouphug:

Patti, of course I don't mind. You were wonderful support for Shaun, Nookie and me, and we love you dearly. Thank you for being there MF :2huggers:

Nookie was very traumatized, though. We got home and he wouldn't let us touch him. He wouldn't even look at us for the first few hours. I think he thinks we killed his brother :cry: :cry:
He was a little better this morning, but then he had a pretty bad seizure a couple of hours ago :(

I just feel so lost.

Oh my, that poor boy :(. He must be mourning the loss of his brother :cry:. There is no way he would ever think you killed him, he just knows his mommy is extremely sad and his brother is not at home. :grouphug:.

BenMax
March 5th, 2012, 01:49 PM
I am so sorry for your loss.:(. Please know that you did everything in your power. Anyways - we know the love and committment that you have for your animals.
Time will heal and through this love you will once again rejoice in knowing that he loved you, and you loved him. That will be ingraved into your heart for years to come.:grouphug:
Strength and Peace to you and your family.

Thorin - run care free, pain free and know how much you are loved.:candle:

Love4himies
March 5th, 2012, 02:10 PM
Rainbow would like to pass on her condolences to you. :grouphug:

:candle: Thorin

marko
March 5th, 2012, 02:41 PM
Please accept my deepest condolences Rqeurts - I'm so sorry for your loss :sorry:

Your tribute to Thorin was just beautiful and it's terrible that we even have to write them. I so wish our 4-legged family members never had to part from us.

:rip: sweet Thorin :candle:

Sincerely,

Marko

Dog Dancer
March 5th, 2012, 02:55 PM
Robyn, I'm so sorry to hear that Nookie is having such a hard time. It's very understandable that he would be. Halo still seems very gloomy sometimes. I'm sorry to hear Nookie had a seizure. I hope that's it for him and that he's uphill now. He doesn't blame you I'm sure. Try not to think that way. He's just thrown off kilter because of this, I'm certain he'll settle back down soon. Hugs to you all in this sad, sad time.:grouphug:

Rgeurts
March 5th, 2012, 03:00 PM
Thank you Sylvie, L4H, BM, Marko and DD for the kind words, and please tell Rainbow thank you as well :) :grouphug:
I know we did the right thing for Thorin, his eyes were so sad the last couple of days, and he was choking/panting a lot. Our grief comes from a more selfish place. We just don't want to be without him. He was my luvbug :(

There is no way he would ever think you killed him, he just knows his mommy is extremely sad and his brother is not at home. :grouphug:.

The reason I say he may think that is because one of the ladies at the clinic said we should bring Nookie so he could say goodbye and know Thorin wouldn't be coming home, that they aren't traumatized by that sort of thing, so we did. Patti held Nookies leash and walked him around, then Shaun put him in the car until it was over. Afterward, Shaun got him out and walked him over to us, but Nookie stopped a couple of feet in front of us, looked at Thorin, sniffed the air, then got a very panicked look, turned and tried to run the other way. Then wouldn't let us near him for a few hours. It broke my heart.

But on a nicer note, Dr. Stelfox was awesome. She was going to come to the house, but the clinic she is at isn't allowing that anymore. She said she would still come, but we didn't want to get her in trouble, so we took him out to Spruce Grove and she took care of him under the pine trees. She had us give him 3 Tramadol an hour before, then she gave him a narcotic sedative and let him get very relaxed and sleepy. She hugged him, gave him a kiss, cried and said goodbye along with us. He went very peacefully. I have a few pictures, but I'm just not up to posting them right now. Maybe in a couple of days :)

chico2
March 5th, 2012, 04:06 PM
Robyn,it seems to me Thorin had a peaceful passing,he is fine now,but it hurts so bad for us left behind,I am sure Nookie feels it too,he lost his brother...our animals have an uncanny feeling of knowing someone is sick,but maybe Nookie is waiting for Thorin to come back home,like he always did after a vet-visit.
:grouphug:to you,your husband and sweet Nookie..:grouphug:

mastifflover
March 6th, 2012, 06:39 AM
Robyn I am so sorry. Thorin could not have had more loving parents you always go above and beyond for your boys. I know your pain and it will ease over time. That was a beautiful tribute to Thorin. He knows how much you loved him and he will be watching over your family as you watched over him in life. RIP sweet Thorin you are loved and missed. A huge hug for you Robyn from me and Clark.:grouphug:

mikischo
March 6th, 2012, 03:00 PM
Robyn, I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy.

He couldn't have had a more loving and devoted family and he felt that love right to the end.

:candle: Run free, sweet :angel2: Thorin :dog: :candle:

MaxaLisa
March 24th, 2012, 01:33 AM
I just saw you mention this in another thread. I am so very very sorry :grouphug: Cancer sucks :(

:candle: Thorin, you were so loved.