January 25th, 2010, 06:14 AM
I honeslty never thought i would be sitting here writing this. Not now anyway.
My beautiful girl, you entered my life 9 years ago. But you really enlightened it three years ago when I started taking you for walks. But we both know they were more then just walks. We spent Hours on end with each other. You would spend full days with me at my house, running around. And of course your aunty would get mad when she'd come home and you were in the house. You loved my mom, even though at first, she didnt like you. Yiou put up with her pushing you away and would go from her. But next time you would still run over to her all goofy like and try to get a scratch.
You really are the reason I kept my sanity. Know matter what happened bad in my day, I always had you to count on, ready to go when I got home. You served me as a pet when I couldnt have my own. And even after I did get me own and for that I thank you. I thank you for loving me when it felt nobody else did. Thank you for all our addventures. All the long bike rides. I still remember the time you snapped at cass, The dog feared by all people and dogs, because he growled at me. As soon as he took his attention from me you backed down from him but he kept attacking.. YOu silly girl got your ear ripped open that day, And All i could do was stand there and catch the blood in shock. Im sorry thats All i could do last night when you passed. You Scared me you know. Everybody was saying you were going to be okay, then you led me outdoors because I thoujght you needed to pee.. I told you not to lie down on the cold bridge. I told you that. But you did it. I stroked you and told you to get up.. Why didnt you? We couild have went back into the house and you could have been fine. :( Why did you leave me girl? When you started whining I knew you were going. Maybe I could have did something to help you. BUt i juust stood there like a dumb robot and watched you die. Im so so so sorry baby girl.
I m iss you so much. My life is already so different without you. I dreamt about you last night. I woke up and turned over and saw your collar hanging from my bed post and the tears started again.. It seems more real now.
I dont know what keely and I will do without you. We both just lost our best friend. Im not going to be able to walk past your house and not see you there, jumping around and waiting for me to come get you. Im not going to be abe to deal with keely trying to haul me in your driveway because she dont know. I wonder how keely is going to take this? she is going to be so confused.
I love you girl. I dreamt about you jumping fences last night. :p My life will never be the same.
rest peacefully my little casedilla. Rest peacefully.
January 25th, 2010, 06:43 AM
I'm sorry for your loss :rip: Kacee :candle:
January 25th, 2010, 07:59 AM
I, too, am very sorry for your loss :(
By the look on her beautiful face, she was, is, and always will be loved ♥
January 25th, 2010, 08:00 AM
BM,please know that,I am sure many of your friends on Pets are crying with you for the loss of beautiful Kacee,maybe it will give you some comfort.
You loved her and gave her a better life:grouphug:I know how much you can love an animal even if it is not yours.
Kacee left this earth,seeing only your loving face....:rip:sweet girl
January 25th, 2010, 08:09 AM
Babymomma this is such a sad story. My heart bleeds for you because I can feel how devastated you are :cry:
Kacee was so very lucky you opened your heart to her and showed her such enjoyment and love. I hope you only have dreams of Kacee in a better place enjoying endless walks soon. In the meantime, remember that we are all sad with you. Some things in life you just can't make sense of...they just are :cry:
:rip: Sweet Kacee
January 25th, 2010, 08:10 AM
This is just soooo heartbreaking, babymomma, chico is right, we are mourning right along with you. :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:
January 25th, 2010, 08:10 AM
babymomma, I am really sorry for your loss.
I will pray for Kaycee and for your broken heart. :candle:
January 25th, 2010, 08:32 AM
I am sitting here crying right along with you. My heart is breaking for you. I'm so so sorry. :grouphug: :(:cry:
January 25th, 2010, 08:52 AM
I'm so sorry to hear she went the way she did. I think she was very greatful to have you there by her side. Just remember that you were there when she needed you, and I really don't think there was anything you could have done. If there was something you could have done, you would have done it. Remember that. Be thankful for the great memories you share with her, and celebrate her life instead of dwelling on her death. :grouphug:
January 25th, 2010, 09:09 AM
Babymomma, I'm so sorry. I know you will miss her badly. You made her life so much better by spending time with her, teaching and walking her. She wasn't yours, you didn't have to, but you took the time to make her life better.:grouphug:
January 25th, 2010, 09:49 AM
She visited you last night in your dreams, babymomma, to let you know she was happy and okay now. And to thank you for the love you gave her. How cool is that? To be loved so much that she sent you a message to hold you till you meet again?
:candle: sweet Kacee
January 25th, 2010, 09:52 AM
:candle::rip: Kacee :candle: :( Your life may have ended in a horrible way but you sure did your job here on earth. You gave a young girl comfort when she needed it. You protected her from harm. You taught her how to love deeply. Good job!
:grouphug: Babymomma I know how much you are hurting. I am so sorry. :grouphug:
January 25th, 2010, 10:14 AM
I have no words to tell you how truly sorry I am for this. What a beautiful happy girl she was. My heart aches for you and the loss of such a gentle soul. :grouphug:
January 25th, 2010, 11:20 AM
BM I'm so sorry to hear that Kacee didn't make it. We were all hoping that she would. I agree with Hazel, she came to you to give you peace. You gave her the love that she needed here during her life and she will wait for you at the bridge. RIP sweet Kacee and :grouphug: to you BM.
January 25th, 2010, 01:19 PM
January 25th, 2010, 05:35 PM
I know your pain all too well, I too lost my sweet sweet girl Jazz, a 9yr old Jack Russel 3 months ago. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do....letting go, it's not an easy thing to do. Now I'm a blubbering mess. Sorry for your loss....:cry:
January 25th, 2010, 05:38 PM
I am so sorry babymomma :( :grouphug:
:rip: dear Kacee :candle:
January 25th, 2010, 06:37 PM
Thanks everybody.. It really hasnt sunk in yet that she is gone.. And Im doubtful it ever will.. Her owners are extremely upset.. I brought down a card for them and wow.. Made me worse. Its so empty down there without her.
My mom has been crying alot, and she never ever liked dogs. I went to my aunts today and I found some comfort in her lab. And I noticed my mom petting her morer then usual.
And poor keely. I think she is confused. She gets on my bed and sniffs kacee's collar alot. And She was looking for her when we wetn down this evening.
I had to walk past where she died today and I just stood there like a robot, Staring at the place she took her last breath.
I feel numb. The only thing I feel is when my heart starts to swell and the tears come.. And OMG do they ever come.. Everything reminds me of her. I keep thinking of the things I wanted to do. I wanted my friend to take a professional Photo Of me and her and Keely. But I kept driving it off because I figured "Well, We have lots of time to do that" .. Buts she is Gone.
What Am I going to do guys? Keely and I will never enjoy our walks the same.
We wont be able to go to the strawberry farm. Not without kacee. She was the one that made me feel safe. She was my protection and she is gone.
January 25th, 2010, 06:55 PM
:rip: Kacee :cry:
January 25th, 2010, 06:58 PM
I am so very sorry, my thoughts and prayers are with you.
:rip: sweet kacee :candle:
January 25th, 2010, 07:13 PM
I am so very sorry babymomma. :( :grouphug:
:rip: Sweet Kacee :candle:
January 25th, 2010, 08:33 PM
So sorry to hear of this Babymomma.
My heart goes out to you, Keely and your family. Be strong.
:rip: sweet Kacee :candle:
January 25th, 2010, 10:21 PM
I am so sorry for your loss....:rip::dog::angel2:
January 26th, 2010, 10:47 AM
babymomma, I am so sorry for the sudden loss of beautiful Kacee.:grouphug: My heart goes out to you and her family.
Kacee left this world knowing she was very much loved.
:candle: Run free, sweet :angel2: Kacee :dog: :candle:
"The animals share with us the privilege of having a soul." -------Pythagoras
"The soul is the same in all living creatures, although the body of each is different." -------Hippocrates
January 26th, 2010, 10:54 AM
I'm soooo sorry for your loss babymomma
R.I.P Kacee :candle:
January 26th, 2010, 11:53 AM
Thanks everybody. :(
Still cant believe my big baby is gone:cry::sorry:
January 26th, 2010, 12:00 PM
Babymomma, the pain will fade with time, I guarantee it, and you will enjoy your walks again with sweet Keely and perhaps another dog that will steal your heart.
Please give Keely extra hugs from me :cry::grouphug:
January 26th, 2010, 03:40 PM
Thanks everybody.. You have no Idea how much I appreciate having a place where people Understand. My friends and Family Really just dont get it.
My mom seems to a little more. She can see how much Im hurting I think.
Had one of the worst days today. Although it still doesnt feel real.
Keely and I went into the woods behind my house. I cant trust myself to walk down the road past the Bast@rds house that hit her. Just in case he is outside. I know I wont be able to control myself. We started going into a trail we normally walk thru.. And I couldnt do it. I just broke down in tears and it scared keely... It occurred to me that i have NEVER been in that trail without kacee (BTW, learned today that Ive been spelling her name wrong, how the heck did that happen?)..And I was scared in there. Keely brought me some comfort, I know she would alert me to danger before I would notice it, But she cant protect me.
So me and keely found a new trail. just for me and her. And it goes on further than the other one. Maybe someday I will be able to go to "our" spots.. Without kacee.. But not yet.
I cant go in my room.. It hurts to see her collar hanging there. But I cant bring myself to put it away somewhere.. It makes me feel guilty.
When does this get easier? DOES it get better? When will it feel reeal? When will I stop calling keely and every other dog around me kacee?
I catch myself thinking that I should go down with her. Only to realize again that she is gone.
Ill be honest. And I feel bad for saying it.. But I wasnt this upset over my grandparents deaths. Even my mom has noticed it.
I put kacee's picture as my desktop backround and im hoping that I will sorta desensitize myself. Everytime I looked at her picture at first i would break down.. But it does seem to be getting a little better. Sortof.
January 26th, 2010, 04:33 PM
Everybody mourns differently, some people can get over loosing somebody by shutting it out of their minds, others it takes longer (I still cry over Snowball, but the pain has subsided a whole lot). If you feel guilty about putting her collar away, don't do it, you don't need any other emotions going on, loosing a best friend is hard enough to handle. :grouphug: Perhaps looking at her collar you can think of the special times you had on your walks.
I think it is great to have a special "Keely and You" walk, that is a great first step in your healing process.
I would have to be restrained from hurting anybody who deliberately killed one of my cats, so, in my eyes, your anger is normal. :grouphug:
January 26th, 2010, 06:26 PM
how wonderfull she led out to a favorite spot and said goodbye
You will meet again i am sure
January 27th, 2010, 05:27 AM
I'm sorry babymomma :grouphug:.
:candle: Kacee :candle:
January 27th, 2010, 03:08 PM
BM I am sorry I didnt post sooner but I have to be honest with you...my heart is breaking for you. :cry: I cant imagine the pain but I agree with everyone that she is runng free of pain at the bridge just waiting to greet those that come later!
If you need us we are here!
RIP sweet one! :candle:
January 27th, 2010, 07:47 PM
having lost my 12 yr old sept 24 09 - all i can say is that time does not heal but time allows us to learn to deal with the pain.
am so glad Kacee had a wonderful loving person in her life to show her the respect and adoration our babies deserve.
February 1st, 2010, 02:04 AM
that's so sad...
February 25th, 2010, 04:40 PM
Its been a month already :(
I miss you baby girl. I will always miss you. I still expect to see you waving at me with both paws when i walk down the road to get you.. Your dog house is gone now. And I just cannot get used to looking in the garden and not seeing it or you there. A wondeful lady from this website sent me a Calender and for each month there's a picture of you there. It brings me comfort, you should watch over her for me okay? I miss you, Keely misses you.. Keely needs her big sister to come back.. And so do I.. bye baby girl. See you soon :)
One would think at 17 years old I would understand that once somebody dies. they arent coming back. So why am I waiting for her to come back? It feels like she's gone for a little bit and she should be back soon. Even though I know she isnt going to come back I still expect it.
I know your waving at me from heaven baby girl :(
February 25th, 2010, 06:52 PM
This is so sad. Very sorry for your loss
February 26th, 2010, 07:41 AM
BM,It's a really sad story,even more so seeing Kacee chained at the dog-house,however seeing her excitement at your approach is heartwarming.
I am sure cute little Keely misses her also,she was a wonderful pup.
I know Kacee is watching over you,grateful for the love and compassion you gave her.
You were her angel and now she's yours:grouphug: